Psychology graduate student Vanessa Avila described experiencing postpartum depression and postpartum psychosis after multiple pregnancies, including severe symptoms after the birth of her third child. Anxiety began “about three days postpartum,” and progressed into intrusive thoughts, fear, and hallucinations.
She recalled avoiding contact with her baby because she feared causing harm. Racing thoughts, voices and disturbing visual images followed as her condition worsened
Limited with support during her first three pregnancies added to those challenges. Her family lived far away, and her children’s father worked long hours.
Within a week of giving birth, Avila said she was “in psychosis,” not eating or experiencing intense fear. She described feeling trapped in a “deep, dark hole” while her surroundings appeared clouded and foggy.
During one crisis, she attempted to take her own life but could not locate the firearm she believed was in her vehicle. She then contacted her mother, who urged her to seek medical care.
A doctor prescribed her medication and connected her with a women’s advocate. Although initially reluctant to begin treatment, Avila started taking the medication after encouragement from her mother.
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After beginning Lexapro, she noticed her “mind started slowing down” and intrusive thoughts became less frequent. The improvement allowed her to better manage the condition.
She remained in treatment during her fourth pregnancy and sought medical care as soon as symptoms returned. Early intervention prevent further escalation, according to her account.
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Support at home became a key part of her recovery. Avila said her husband took three months away from work following the birth of their fourth child.
The level of support differed significantly from her earlier experiences. It allowed her to seek help openly without fear of judgment.
She also became more comfortable discussing warning signs, including symptoms of postpartum depression. Her husband encouraged her to seek hospital care when those signs appeared.
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Avila identified her awareness as her greatest success. Recognizing symptoms early allowed her to seek help before they escalated and helped her avoid hospitalization.
That experience influenced her decision to pursue a master’s degree in psychology. She said it also strengthened her commitment to advocating for women and children in her community.
